restless

06Oct04

This hasn’t happened in a few years, but I have my fall restlessness back again. I had forgotten what it is like, but now I remember. It is driving me nets. I think it is a change thing- I need to make some sort of big change.

I don’t think it really has to do with the weather- aren’t you supposed to get restless in the spring? Maybe because winter doesn’t bother me as much as it does others, and spring is nothing but rain, and I hate that.

If I remember, what I do to stop it is to do something big. What I really need is a change. I would like it to be something big, something noticeable. I really need a change. Something in my apartment, most likely. I would like to blow up my living room and start again, but I might get a lot of complaints from the neighbors about the noise. Usually my needing to move9 and maybe actually getting to would help, but I don’t know.

then, it just could be that I don’t have anything that I am temporarily obsessed (or preoccupied) with. But I don’t really think that is it. It would be too easy.

I just wonder how it will end…

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